I have had a bad week. Things have not gone right for me and things have happened that have left me so confused.
I have never understood why it is that when your kids act bad, no one tells you until they don't know what else to do. They just talk about it with other people and then quite some time later you find out about it. Wouldn't it make more sense to tell the parents about the kids in the beginning so that they can help get them under control?
We have been having problems with our boys for quite some time now, but apparently so have other people, but they didn't tell us about it until recently. We found out that people were complaining about our kids who see us a lot, and never said a word to us. I just feel like that is wrong. That is like talking about someone behind their back.
I know my kids are acting bad, I deal with it too. We have tried everything, and nothing seems to really work. I have even thought about sending them some where that can do something with them, but I don't want them to feel unloved. Praying is all I know to do right now.
I'm just going to keep looking to God for answers.
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Friday, November 2, 2007
Stressing Out
When we bought this house, we were told that the taxes on it weren't bad, and when we seen what the previous owner paid, we new we could handle it. We got the county tax bill a day ago and I just about passed out. It is almost $500 and that isn't counting city tax! The taxes are due on November 30th, along with house insurance over $300, the city tax should be here sometime, and it should be close to $200, then I have $200 worth of uniforms to buy before school starts back in January.
All this on one income ... yeah I am freaking out! It is going to take a miracle from God to get this all paid. As if I didn't have enough to stress about with school and getting good grades, now I got to worry about over $1200 we have to have very soon.
I can't get a job, it would cause me to do poorly in school - which would be counterproductive. Our income taxes will be here in February, but that is too late. Stanley will work over as much as possible, but because they have had someone working over all the time and not getting much work done, they are trying to stop overtime completely because they feel someone is taking advantage of the company.
Christmas will be very skimpy this year to say the least, and we won't be able to spend any money that isn't absolutely necessary. Pinching pennies will be my new hobby. I can't wait! I'm gonna go cry and pray, have a great, glorious, and blessed day!
All this on one income ... yeah I am freaking out! It is going to take a miracle from God to get this all paid. As if I didn't have enough to stress about with school and getting good grades, now I got to worry about over $1200 we have to have very soon.
I can't get a job, it would cause me to do poorly in school - which would be counterproductive. Our income taxes will be here in February, but that is too late. Stanley will work over as much as possible, but because they have had someone working over all the time and not getting much work done, they are trying to stop overtime completely because they feel someone is taking advantage of the company.
Christmas will be very skimpy this year to say the least, and we won't be able to spend any money that isn't absolutely necessary. Pinching pennies will be my new hobby. I can't wait! I'm gonna go cry and pray, have a great, glorious, and blessed day!
Friday, October 5, 2007
"Pray At Your Own Risk"
That is what I was told when trying to start a prayer walk at my college. That is ok, I WILL pray at my own risk ... I WILL take a stand for Jesus. Will you? http://www.reviveprayerwalk.com
Wednesday, October 3, 2007
Busy-Busy-Busy
I have so much going on this week that I feel a bit overwhelmed. I have a final exam in my Art Class I can take tomorrow or Friday. An essay to write by Friday. A test in Psychology I can take from Sunday to Wednesday. A lab test Tuesday, and I was suppose to have an A&P test on Tuesday too, but apparently they are not supposed to schedule lab & lecture tests on the same day, so we have been told lecture will move to another day.
I am also trying to get REVIVE started at my college. So far I have been told that "This is a state school and therefore we cannot promote religious events" ... HOGWASH I tell ya, pure hogwash! I am not giving up though. My Nursing advisor (Dean of Nursing) seems to love the idea and is going to talk with the leaders of the school, so I still feel good about it.
Pray that Revive makes it to WKCTC! College students need prayer too!
I am also trying to get REVIVE started at my college. So far I have been told that "This is a state school and therefore we cannot promote religious events" ... HOGWASH I tell ya, pure hogwash! I am not giving up though. My Nursing advisor (Dean of Nursing) seems to love the idea and is going to talk with the leaders of the school, so I still feel good about it.
Pray that Revive makes it to WKCTC! College students need prayer too!
Wednesday, September 26, 2007
God Vs. Satan
God has really been at work around me this week, it is awesome. I have had the opportunity to witness to someone who may be lost. I know this person is searching for God and answers and God says if we seek him, we will find him. I pray that this person searches until they find him.
God has answered several prayers this week and I just feel like I am back with a loving relationship with him, and I am so thankful! I have been trying to get daily family devotionals going for some now, but like our Preacher's wife said, sometimes Satan doesn't get you to do bad, he just distracts you with good things (like Upward football & cheerleading, and volunteering for everything), that it takes your focus off the really important things like reading your bible, praying, and having family devotionals.
I have been reading my bible everyday for a few days now, and I pray all the time, but it is vital that my family get into a family devotional because it seems like we are falling apart. The kids have been fighting like crazy, they have been disrespectful to us and other people, they have gotten where they don't think they have to mind. I pray that God helps us to get it under control.
My best friend is moving back to Murray. I had the feeling she wouldn't stay long, even if things worked out, which they didn't ... it just breaks my heart because I'm one of few friends of hers who is in church and has a relationship with God. I was hoping if she was here long enough I could lead her to God. I have witnessed to her and have been praying for her on a regular basis, so I have done what God requires of me. I just wish I could know that she was saved and going to Heaven when she dies. UPDATE: Looks like things worked out, and for now she is going to stay. THANK YOU GOD! Another answered prayer!
Satan showed up this morning and caused my kids to miss "Pray At The Pole". He also put in my mind someone who I have felt for a long time doesn't like me. Last night I was at the jewelry party and this person was there. Every time I am around this person I feel like they don't like me, and that's fine I guess, I just wish I knew what I did to them so that I could apologize for it.
I pray for this person a lot and hopefully one day I will have the courage to ask why they don't like me. I am pretty sure that I haven't done anything to them, but a lot of people choose not to like someone for petty reasons, or no reason at all. I just pray that God will fix it, that's all I can do. I can't make someone like me. There are even people who just act like they do like me (I can tell), even though I'd rather them not like me and me know it than act like they like me. I can't stand "fake-ness" in people, it drives me crazy.
We all know that God will win over Satan. Satan is just a pain in the neck that we have to deal with until Jesus comes back. I hope that God has blessed you and kept you safe from harm. Have a great, glorious, and blessed day!
God has answered several prayers this week and I just feel like I am back with a loving relationship with him, and I am so thankful! I have been trying to get daily family devotionals going for some now, but like our Preacher's wife said, sometimes Satan doesn't get you to do bad, he just distracts you with good things (like Upward football & cheerleading, and volunteering for everything), that it takes your focus off the really important things like reading your bible, praying, and having family devotionals.
I have been reading my bible everyday for a few days now, and I pray all the time, but it is vital that my family get into a family devotional because it seems like we are falling apart. The kids have been fighting like crazy, they have been disrespectful to us and other people, they have gotten where they don't think they have to mind. I pray that God helps us to get it under control.
My best friend is moving back to Murray. I had the feeling she wouldn't stay long, even if things worked out, which they didn't ... it just breaks my heart because I'm one of few friends of hers who is in church and has a relationship with God. I was hoping if she was here long enough I could lead her to God. I have witnessed to her and have been praying for her on a regular basis, so I have done what God requires of me. I just wish I could know that she was saved and going to Heaven when she dies. UPDATE: Looks like things worked out, and for now she is going to stay. THANK YOU GOD! Another answered prayer!
Satan showed up this morning and caused my kids to miss "Pray At The Pole". He also put in my mind someone who I have felt for a long time doesn't like me. Last night I was at the jewelry party and this person was there. Every time I am around this person I feel like they don't like me, and that's fine I guess, I just wish I knew what I did to them so that I could apologize for it.
I pray for this person a lot and hopefully one day I will have the courage to ask why they don't like me. I am pretty sure that I haven't done anything to them, but a lot of people choose not to like someone for petty reasons, or no reason at all. I just pray that God will fix it, that's all I can do. I can't make someone like me. There are even people who just act like they do like me (I can tell), even though I'd rather them not like me and me know it than act like they like me. I can't stand "fake-ness" in people, it drives me crazy.
We all know that God will win over Satan. Satan is just a pain in the neck that we have to deal with until Jesus comes back. I hope that God has blessed you and kept you safe from harm. Have a great, glorious, and blessed day!
Friday, September 21, 2007
Urgent Prayer Request
Please pray for my best friend. She had some tests come back that weren't in her favor and she is having more tests run. Pray that God will protect her and keep her from harm. She doesn't have a personal relationship with Christ and she is studying other religions. I am only one person trying to compete with so many other things that I feel so helpless and hopeless.
I mourn for her soul and I mourn for what is going on with her right now. I have been so emotional since this test came back. It is like it is so much more important for me to get her saved, but I don't know how to get her there without pushing her away. She seems so believing of other religions but doesn't believe Jesus Christ is the only way to get to God. I just feel like I am failing God by not leading her to him.
Dear Heavenly Father, I want to thank you for this beautiful day and all that I have. I love you so much and want so much to be more like Jesus. Please help me to be more patient, more understanding, have more self control and more love for others. Lord I know I have failed you many times this week. Lord I ask for your forgiveness for all the ways I have failed you, including those I don't remember. Lord I have a heavy burden that I need to hand over to you. My friend is in need of your love, your mercy, and your forgiveness, she just doesn't realize it yet. Lord I pray so strongly for her. She needs to be saved and she needs for this test to come back ok. I give it to you Lord, I pray for your will to be done. I may not understand what is going on, but I know your way is the best way. Help me be a tool that you can use. Give me wisdom and strength. In Jesus' name I pray. Amen.
I mourn for her soul and I mourn for what is going on with her right now. I have been so emotional since this test came back. It is like it is so much more important for me to get her saved, but I don't know how to get her there without pushing her away. She seems so believing of other religions but doesn't believe Jesus Christ is the only way to get to God. I just feel like I am failing God by not leading her to him.
Dear Heavenly Father, I want to thank you for this beautiful day and all that I have. I love you so much and want so much to be more like Jesus. Please help me to be more patient, more understanding, have more self control and more love for others. Lord I know I have failed you many times this week. Lord I ask for your forgiveness for all the ways I have failed you, including those I don't remember. Lord I have a heavy burden that I need to hand over to you. My friend is in need of your love, your mercy, and your forgiveness, she just doesn't realize it yet. Lord I pray so strongly for her. She needs to be saved and she needs for this test to come back ok. I give it to you Lord, I pray for your will to be done. I may not understand what is going on, but I know your way is the best way. Help me be a tool that you can use. Give me wisdom and strength. In Jesus' name I pray. Amen.
Tuesday, August 28, 2007
I Need Help - Laryngitis Would Be Great!
I found out this morning that the person who always causes Stanley trouble at work, managed to whine enough about some overtime that Stanley was getting (even though this person gets a lot of overtime), so now Stanley won't get that particular overtime anymore.
It's a shame that someone who makes more money than us and has three less mouths to feed, who works almost every Saturday and any time he can to get overtime, would concern himself with our business, and be so envious of a measly 30 minutes a day of overtime, that he would make sure Stanley lost it. That is kind of like taking food out of my kids mouths, which upsets me greatly.
This person steals Stanley's food, gives his food to other people, goes to the office and whines about everything Stanley does, and has even tried to get his job. Yeah folks, this is what Christians are starting to look like. No wonder the lost are running as far away as they can from Christianity, you can't tell the difference between Christians and the lost anymore. (And I'm talking about a lot of Christians, myself included).
I just keep telling myself that Psalm 37:8 says: Refrain from anger and turn from wrath; do not fret—it leads only to evil. Because I feel a storm brewing in my mouth and if I see this person, Hurricane Cindy just might make landfall. I can't deal with this person anymore. I need to distance myself from this person as much as possible because Stanley won't say anything to him, so he thinks he can just keep walking all over him, and he needs to know he can't keep doing this and Stanley & I continue to ignore it.
Dear Lord, I thank you for everything that we have, and even for the things we don't have because you know more than we do what we need. Lord I need your guidance, your strength, your mercy, I need your wisdom...I ask that you please help me with the above situation. You say you won't give us more than we can handle, and I know you mean what you say. Lord please help me show Christ in me, help me to say only good things and not bad things. Please forgive me of many many failures. In Jesus' name I pray, Amen.
It's a shame that someone who makes more money than us and has three less mouths to feed, who works almost every Saturday and any time he can to get overtime, would concern himself with our business, and be so envious of a measly 30 minutes a day of overtime, that he would make sure Stanley lost it. That is kind of like taking food out of my kids mouths, which upsets me greatly.
This person steals Stanley's food, gives his food to other people, goes to the office and whines about everything Stanley does, and has even tried to get his job. Yeah folks, this is what Christians are starting to look like. No wonder the lost are running as far away as they can from Christianity, you can't tell the difference between Christians and the lost anymore. (And I'm talking about a lot of Christians, myself included).
I just keep telling myself that Psalm 37:8 says: Refrain from anger and turn from wrath; do not fret—it leads only to evil. Because I feel a storm brewing in my mouth and if I see this person, Hurricane Cindy just might make landfall. I can't deal with this person anymore. I need to distance myself from this person as much as possible because Stanley won't say anything to him, so he thinks he can just keep walking all over him, and he needs to know he can't keep doing this and Stanley & I continue to ignore it.
Dear Lord, I thank you for everything that we have, and even for the things we don't have because you know more than we do what we need. Lord I need your guidance, your strength, your mercy, I need your wisdom...I ask that you please help me with the above situation. You say you won't give us more than we can handle, and I know you mean what you say. Lord please help me show Christ in me, help me to say only good things and not bad things. Please forgive me of many many failures. In Jesus' name I pray, Amen.
Monday, August 27, 2007
Just Stuff
Well I just got on here for a few minutes before I start doing my homework and going over cheers for practice tonight. I have a ton of homework to do, and most of it is due by Friday. I have a full plate this week, so I'm not sure how often I will be able to blog, but I will try to everyday.
This is my last week of work, so hopefully things will get back to normal, and we will be able to implement a daily devotional into our busy schedules. Saying your going to do it and doing it are very different things. We always say we will, and we may even start it, but then something happens and we don't continue. I believe a family devotional is just what we need.
I have been having issues the past few weeks. I've decided to just let it go and let God deal with it all. I am going to focus on him and what I need to do and then I won't have to stress over the other things because I know he will take care of it.
I hope you have a great, glorious, and blessed day.
Dear Lord, I thank you for this day and the many blessings you give us each day. Lord I give you all my troubles and issues, I ask that you deal with them, do your will with them, and let me let go of them emotionally. I pray that you work on me, guide and direct me, make me more like Jesus, and let others see Jesus in me. All this I ask in Jesus' name, Amen!
This is my last week of work, so hopefully things will get back to normal, and we will be able to implement a daily devotional into our busy schedules. Saying your going to do it and doing it are very different things. We always say we will, and we may even start it, but then something happens and we don't continue. I believe a family devotional is just what we need.
I have been having issues the past few weeks. I've decided to just let it go and let God deal with it all. I am going to focus on him and what I need to do and then I won't have to stress over the other things because I know he will take care of it.
I hope you have a great, glorious, and blessed day.
Dear Lord, I thank you for this day and the many blessings you give us each day. Lord I give you all my troubles and issues, I ask that you deal with them, do your will with them, and let me let go of them emotionally. I pray that you work on me, guide and direct me, make me more like Jesus, and let others see Jesus in me. All this I ask in Jesus' name, Amen!
Friday, August 24, 2007
Etc. Etc. Etc.
We have a new addition to the family, Brutus - a full blooded Chinese Pug who is the most loving little/fat thing you have ever seen. He was given to us by my sister's friend. He came with a big pet carrier, shampoo, brush, dog bowl, food mat, breath chews, puppy food (the only food he will eat),a leash, and two dog toys ... All free! The kids love him and he loves the kids. Now we are back to three dogs, two of them are in the house, one outside.
My first week of school was good, other than about a months worth of homework from 4 classes that I have to finish in a week - yeah I'll be busy for a while. The bad thing is that I work tonight and Saturday this week, and then Tuesday, Thursday, Friday, & Saturday next week. I'm not going to have enough time to do my homework. I will just have to take it to work with me and do it when I can.
I was starting to feel better about a few things that was bothering me when my husband came home to tell me that someone was trying to cause him more trouble at work again. This is something that goes on regularly and I'm really getting tired of it. Mainly because this person will act like nothing happened in a day or two and expect us to do the same.
Just please pray for me, that I don't say or do something stupid. Pray that I will read more of my Bible so that good things will come out of me when I'm upset. There is a lesson here somewhere - pray I figure it out and learn from it.
Have a great, glorious, and blessed day!
My first week of school was good, other than about a months worth of homework from 4 classes that I have to finish in a week - yeah I'll be busy for a while. The bad thing is that I work tonight and Saturday this week, and then Tuesday, Thursday, Friday, & Saturday next week. I'm not going to have enough time to do my homework. I will just have to take it to work with me and do it when I can.
I was starting to feel better about a few things that was bothering me when my husband came home to tell me that someone was trying to cause him more trouble at work again. This is something that goes on regularly and I'm really getting tired of it. Mainly because this person will act like nothing happened in a day or two and expect us to do the same.
Just please pray for me, that I don't say or do something stupid. Pray that I will read more of my Bible so that good things will come out of me when I'm upset. There is a lesson here somewhere - pray I figure it out and learn from it.
Have a great, glorious, and blessed day!
Monday, August 20, 2007
Have You Thought About It?
***UPDATE*** 8-21-07
This post came from something I have been dealing with and praying about that Satan tends to bring up when I'm feeling really good about my life and the changes I want to make. I thought if I posted it and prayed about it that it would go away.
This post isn't about any one person because I tend to let what people say to me or how they act toward me influence my decisions(which is wrong of ME)...Even people in my own home and family discourage me, but they don't realize it I am sure. Like I said, even I have said or done something that discouraged someone else.
If we all acted like God wanted us to, we would quit trying to be popular, quit acting like we are better than others, and start encouraging and supporting all of our brothers and sisters in Christ, and even lost people too, especially lost people.
Have you ever thought about how the way you act can impact someone else's life by discouraging them? In church, at home, wherever... how something you say or do can prevent someone else from doing something they thought about doing for someone else, or for Christ because you have discouraged them.
For instance, let's say you want to be more involved at your church, but there are a few people that don't think your qualified, or give you funny looks or say something sarcastic when you talk about it. Maybe they let power go to their heads and act like they are above you, that you work for them.
Maybe you want to be good friends with someone, but they act like they don't like you. They don't want to be around you, and it's noticeable.
You want to sing in the choir but someone laughed at you because they think you can't sing. Maybe you want to sing a solo but someone said something that changed your mind.
Maybe you thought of a great way to help people who desperately need it, and then were told no, not by words, but by someone ignoring the situation.
Maybe you have great ideas about things and want to share, but no one takes you seriously, so you chicken out.
None of us should care what others think about us, especially in times when we feel we are showing the love of Christ, or that God led us to do something. But, too many times I think someone else discourages us from doing something we feel strongly about with their words, their actions, and things they say.
I know this has happened to me many times, matter of fact it does all the time. Not necessarily the things listed, but from other things, by people who I can tell don't like me for what ever reason. I try so hard to be nice to them, try to befriend them, but I guess I'm not good enough for them, or whatever the case may be. They pretend to be my friend, or will be nice to my face, I'd rather them be ugly to me, rude to me, or ignore me then to pretend. Regardless, I let them discourage me from doing things that I know God has called me to do a couple of times. Something I shouldn't do, but I do.
I'm sure I have also said or done something that discouraged someone else. I pray I won't ever do it again! It doesn't feel very good.
This post came from something I have been dealing with and praying about that Satan tends to bring up when I'm feeling really good about my life and the changes I want to make. I thought if I posted it and prayed about it that it would go away.
This post isn't about any one person because I tend to let what people say to me or how they act toward me influence my decisions(which is wrong of ME)...Even people in my own home and family discourage me, but they don't realize it I am sure. Like I said, even I have said or done something that discouraged someone else.
If we all acted like God wanted us to, we would quit trying to be popular, quit acting like we are better than others, and start encouraging and supporting all of our brothers and sisters in Christ, and even lost people too, especially lost people.
Have you ever thought about how the way you act can impact someone else's life by discouraging them? In church, at home, wherever... how something you say or do can prevent someone else from doing something they thought about doing for someone else, or for Christ because you have discouraged them.
For instance, let's say you want to be more involved at your church, but there are a few people that don't think your qualified, or give you funny looks or say something sarcastic when you talk about it. Maybe they let power go to their heads and act like they are above you, that you work for them.
Maybe you want to be good friends with someone, but they act like they don't like you. They don't want to be around you, and it's noticeable.
You want to sing in the choir but someone laughed at you because they think you can't sing. Maybe you want to sing a solo but someone said something that changed your mind.
Maybe you thought of a great way to help people who desperately need it, and then were told no, not by words, but by someone ignoring the situation.
Maybe you have great ideas about things and want to share, but no one takes you seriously, so you chicken out.
None of us should care what others think about us, especially in times when we feel we are showing the love of Christ, or that God led us to do something. But, too many times I think someone else discourages us from doing something we feel strongly about with their words, their actions, and things they say.
I know this has happened to me many times, matter of fact it does all the time. Not necessarily the things listed, but from other things, by people who I can tell don't like me for what ever reason. I try so hard to be nice to them, try to befriend them, but I guess I'm not good enough for them, or whatever the case may be. They pretend to be my friend, or will be nice to my face, I'd rather them be ugly to me, rude to me, or ignore me then to pretend. Regardless, I let them discourage me from doing things that I know God has called me to do a couple of times. Something I shouldn't do, but I do.
I'm sure I have also said or done something that discouraged someone else. I pray I won't ever do it again! It doesn't feel very good.
Wednesday, August 15, 2007
Anger
Proverbs 29:11 A fool gives full vent to his anger, but a wise man keeps himself under control.
Proverbs 29:8 Mockers stir up a city, but wise men turn away anger.
Proverbs 22:24 Do not make friends with a hot-tempered man, do not associate with one easily angered,
Proverbs 15:1 A gentle answer turns away wrath, but a harsh word stirs up anger.
Anger can tear a family apart. It can eat at your insides. It can cause so many bad things.
Proverbs 29:8 Mockers stir up a city, but wise men turn away anger.
Proverbs 22:24 Do not make friends with a hot-tempered man, do not associate with one easily angered,
Proverbs 15:1 A gentle answer turns away wrath, but a harsh word stirs up anger.
Anger can tear a family apart. It can eat at your insides. It can cause so many bad things.
Tuesday, August 14, 2007
I Think I Got My Answer
Family issues have forced me to give my notice. I can't be working when I am obviously needed at home. God, family, and school are much more important than money anyway. Some people just aren't meant to have money, and I guess we are some of those people. That's fine with me I suppose, I just needed the money to fix my teeth, get mine and Tanner's glasses, pay around $5000 in medical bills, buy all the medication I'm supposed to be taking but can't afford, buy clothes for the entire family, and have a few dollars put away for emergencies ... I guess just enough money to pay bills, buy groceries and put gas in the car will have to do. If groceries and gas prices continue to rise then we are really out of luck.
I know, it sounds like I'm complaining, and I guess I am. It's just so frustrating.
I know, it sounds like I'm complaining, and I guess I am. It's just so frustrating.
Friday, August 10, 2007
Trying To Understand
Have you ever wondered why people want to hurt other people? I'm not talking about unintentional mistakes, I'm talking about deliberate, purposeful actions. I have been trying to understand this for a long time, and I have actually been dealing with people like this in my own family. I think this is partly how Satan got a hold of me the past few weeks, because I have been talking with someone who regularly does mean things to people on purpose. This person isn't in my household, but they are apart of my family.
I can't take it anymore! I can't stand the division this person has caused in my family, the pain, the lies, the constant bickering with someone. I CAN'T TAKE IT ANYMORE!
Dear Lord I can only pray and hand this over to you, I can't deal with it anymore. Satan uses this person to do his dirty work, and it seems to be doing the trick. Only you can stop it. Only you can change it and make it better. I ask that you put your hand in this situation before relationships are ruined and more of my family is divided. In Jesus name I pray, Amen!
I can't take it anymore! I can't stand the division this person has caused in my family, the pain, the lies, the constant bickering with someone. I CAN'T TAKE IT ANYMORE!
Dear Lord I can only pray and hand this over to you, I can't deal with it anymore. Satan uses this person to do his dirty work, and it seems to be doing the trick. Only you can stop it. Only you can change it and make it better. I ask that you put your hand in this situation before relationships are ruined and more of my family is divided. In Jesus name I pray, Amen!
Thursday, August 9, 2007
Feeling Out Of Touch
Things just seem to be working against me the past few weeks and I figured out why. I haven't been reading my Bible like I ought to and so I'm feeling out of touch with God. It's amazing how reading your Bible can make you feel better, but it does. I have been so busy working and getting things ready for school that I haven't made the time for reading my Bible or even walking for that matter. It has been too hot to walk, but I can read my Bible from the comfort of my living room.
Satan has really stepped in lately and it's my own fault. I don't have my sword ready for battle. I am posting this and then I am going to spend some time with God. I want to feel that fellowship and that closeness with Him.
I pray that you will do the same. Have a great, glorious, and blessed day!
Satan has really stepped in lately and it's my own fault. I don't have my sword ready for battle. I am posting this and then I am going to spend some time with God. I want to feel that fellowship and that closeness with Him.
I pray that you will do the same. Have a great, glorious, and blessed day!
Thursday, August 2, 2007
This That & The Other
We didn't go to church last night because Stanley was so tired and overheated from work. I wanted to go but he wanted me to stay home with him...he told me that key people in the church missed more church than we did. We don't miss church much, I can count on one hand how many times we've missed, but that's beside the point - I love church and hate to miss it, and my day started going downhill after not going.
Today I have a conference I MUST attend or I forfeit my spot in the nursing program. It is from 2:30-5:00PM. They will tell us about the schedule, uniforms, immunizations, grades, etc. I am so excited about January when I will be in the nursing program. Not many people get excited about their career, but I know that this is my true calling.
There is someone in my family (and I won't mention their name), that needs prayer, and lots of it. I won't go into specifics, but they are entangled in Satan's trap, and need to find their way back to God. I have invited them to church-they always have an excuse why they can't come. I have even quit talking to this person because I couldn't deal with the lies they spew-it doesn't work. This person is so vengeful, spiteful, and full of hate for their own family-It makes the rest of the family not want to be around or talk to them if they can keep from it because you never know what this person will do or say out of anger or revenge if you don't do or say what they want you to. Lord please help this person in my family-you know everything they need, you know how to fix it, I pray you do what needs to be done according to your will, In Jesus' name I pray, Amen!
Today I have a conference I MUST attend or I forfeit my spot in the nursing program. It is from 2:30-5:00PM. They will tell us about the schedule, uniforms, immunizations, grades, etc. I am so excited about January when I will be in the nursing program. Not many people get excited about their career, but I know that this is my true calling.
There is someone in my family (and I won't mention their name), that needs prayer, and lots of it. I won't go into specifics, but they are entangled in Satan's trap, and need to find their way back to God. I have invited them to church-they always have an excuse why they can't come. I have even quit talking to this person because I couldn't deal with the lies they spew-it doesn't work. This person is so vengeful, spiteful, and full of hate for their own family-It makes the rest of the family not want to be around or talk to them if they can keep from it because you never know what this person will do or say out of anger or revenge if you don't do or say what they want you to. Lord please help this person in my family-you know everything they need, you know how to fix it, I pray you do what needs to be done according to your will, In Jesus' name I pray, Amen!
Friday, July 27, 2007
R.I.P. Shadow
Just a few minutes ago my precious lab died. I called the vet this morning, they were sure it was Parvo and said I could bring him in and they would give him IV fluids, something for vomitting and the other thing, but no guarantee it would work, or I could give him Pedialyte, Pepto and something for fever at home. I decided to try it myself and went to get the Pedialyte right down the road, came back and he had bled all over the floor from his behind. I poored Pepto down him, Pedialyte, and a child's tylenol and put him out in the garage. Checked on him a few minutes later and I could tell he was dying, I tried more Pedialyte and Pepto, poored it down and he swallowed it good, but a few minutes later more blood came out and he started moaning. A few minutes later he died. I tried so hard to save him but he was too far gone.
The only thing I can figure is that he had it a day before we found him, because it didn't take 24 hours to kill him once we realized he was sick. I just pray it doesn't get the other dogs.
The only thing I can figure is that he had it a day before we found him, because it didn't take 24 hours to kill him once we realized he was sick. I just pray it doesn't get the other dogs.
One Sick Puppy
Tuesday a kitten that my kids adopted about a week before, died, I thought my boys torchered it to death but now my lab is sick and has many of the same symptoms the kitten did. I found a dead bird in the back yard, and after investigating all around for a possible cause of my lab's sickness, I found part of a bird in his waste. I wondered if the kitten and the dog didn't catch something from the bird, but now my lab seems to have symptoms of Parvo. I am taking him to the vet today after me and the boys get our shots for school.
I sure hope my lab makes it, he is so sick. All he does is drool, vomit, and the other thing. He wouldn't drink anything yesterday, I had to force liquids down him, but last night he started drinking water, and as long as he doesn't eat, he doesn't vomit or the other. He has lost so much weight already, he looks like he hasn't eaten in days.
Saturday he was full of life and playing like he always does, today all he can do sit and drool on the floor, he doesn't have much energy and he sure doesn't feel like playing. I pray that my lab makes it, his name is Shadow and he is the sweetest lab you will ever find. Barely over a year old. I love him so much! My dogs are like my kids to me.
Please pray for Shadow! Have a great, glorious, and blessed day!
I sure hope my lab makes it, he is so sick. All he does is drool, vomit, and the other thing. He wouldn't drink anything yesterday, I had to force liquids down him, but last night he started drinking water, and as long as he doesn't eat, he doesn't vomit or the other. He has lost so much weight already, he looks like he hasn't eaten in days.
Saturday he was full of life and playing like he always does, today all he can do sit and drool on the floor, he doesn't have much energy and he sure doesn't feel like playing. I pray that my lab makes it, his name is Shadow and he is the sweetest lab you will ever find. Barely over a year old. I love him so much! My dogs are like my kids to me.
Please pray for Shadow! Have a great, glorious, and blessed day!
Wednesday, July 25, 2007
The Little Things
Sometimes it's the little things that get to me. Little sarcastic comments, little empty threats, little dirty looks - right now I've had about all I can take. I pray that I can let it go without a fight, because I feel one brewing. I pray that the little empty threats are just that, because if not some real trouble could be heading my way.
Dear Lord I pray that you will give me patience, strength, and the ability to ignore so that I can deal with this issue. In Jesus' name I pray, Amen!
Dear Lord I pray that you will give me patience, strength, and the ability to ignore so that I can deal with this issue. In Jesus' name I pray, Amen!
My Walking / Exercise Journal
I drink 32-64 oz. of water daily and have cut down my calorie intake considerably and have only lost 4 pounds. I had lost 9 pounds but I gained 5 back. I have lost inches though, and my clothes are looser and I feel better and stronger. I just wish the weight loss was more, but 4 pounds in a little over a month isn't bad. It will take me quite some time to lose all the weight I want to lose though.
6-06-07 walked 1.1 mile
6-07-07 walked 2.2 miles
6-08-07 walked 3.3 miles
6-09-07 rode bicycle .4 of a mile
6-10-07 walked 5.2 miles
6-11-07 walked 5.2 miles
6-12-07 walked 5.2 miles
6-13-07 walked 5.2 miles
6-14-07 walked 5.5 miles
6-15-07 walked 2.5 miles / rode bicycle 1 mile
6-16-07 walked 3 miles
6-17-07 walked 1.1 miles
6-18-07 walked 5.2 miles
6-19-07 walked 2.2 miles
6-20-07 walked 5.2 miles
6-21-07 walked .8 of a mile (very hot outside)
6-22-07 walked 4.8 miles
6-23-07 walked 4.4 miles / rode bicycle .8 of a mile
6-24-07 walked 4.4 miles / rode bicycle .4 of a mile
6-25-07 walked none
6-26-07 walked 5.2 miles
6-27-07 walked 2.4 miles
6-28-07 walked none
6-29-07 walked 4.9 miles
6-30-07 walked 3.3 miles
7-01-07 walked 2.2 miles
7-02-07 walked 1.9 miles (feeling bad)
7-03-07 walked 2.2 miles (sick)
7-04-07 walked 1.1 mile (sick)
7-05-07 walked none (still sick)
7-06-07 walked none (at mom's)
7-07-07 walked none (had company)
7-08-07 walked 2.4 miles
7-09-07 walked 4.9 miles / used weights & exercised whole body
7-10-07 walked 4.2 miles / rode bicycle .8 of a mile / exercised whole body
7-11-07 walked 4.9 miles
7-12-07 walked 1.1 miles (on a juice fast)
7-13-07 walked 2.2 miles (still juice fasting)
7-14-07 walked none (still juice fasting)
7-15-07 walked 2.1 miles
7-16-07 walked none (started new job)
7-17-07 walked none
7-18-07 walked none
7-19-07 walked none
7-20-07 walked none
7-21-07 walked 1.4 miles
7-22-07 walked none
7-23-07 walked none
7-24-07 walked none
7-25-07 walked 1.9 miles
Grand Total: 118.2 miles
Thank you God for giving me the energy and strength to walk. I pray that you will help me to walk every single day. In Jesus' name I pray, Amen!
6-06-07 walked 1.1 mile
6-07-07 walked 2.2 miles
6-08-07 walked 3.3 miles
6-09-07 rode bicycle .4 of a mile
6-10-07 walked 5.2 miles
6-11-07 walked 5.2 miles
6-12-07 walked 5.2 miles
6-13-07 walked 5.2 miles
6-14-07 walked 5.5 miles
6-15-07 walked 2.5 miles / rode bicycle 1 mile
6-16-07 walked 3 miles
6-17-07 walked 1.1 miles
6-18-07 walked 5.2 miles
6-19-07 walked 2.2 miles
6-20-07 walked 5.2 miles
6-21-07 walked .8 of a mile (very hot outside)
6-22-07 walked 4.8 miles
6-23-07 walked 4.4 miles / rode bicycle .8 of a mile
6-24-07 walked 4.4 miles / rode bicycle .4 of a mile
6-25-07 walked none
6-26-07 walked 5.2 miles
6-27-07 walked 2.4 miles
6-28-07 walked none
6-29-07 walked 4.9 miles
6-30-07 walked 3.3 miles
7-01-07 walked 2.2 miles
7-02-07 walked 1.9 miles (feeling bad)
7-03-07 walked 2.2 miles (sick)
7-04-07 walked 1.1 mile (sick)
7-05-07 walked none (still sick)
7-06-07 walked none (at mom's)
7-07-07 walked none (had company)
7-08-07 walked 2.4 miles
7-09-07 walked 4.9 miles / used weights & exercised whole body
7-10-07 walked 4.2 miles / rode bicycle .8 of a mile / exercised whole body
7-11-07 walked 4.9 miles
7-12-07 walked 1.1 miles (on a juice fast)
7-13-07 walked 2.2 miles (still juice fasting)
7-14-07 walked none (still juice fasting)
7-15-07 walked 2.1 miles
7-16-07 walked none (started new job)
7-17-07 walked none
7-18-07 walked none
7-19-07 walked none
7-20-07 walked none
7-21-07 walked 1.4 miles
7-22-07 walked none
7-23-07 walked none
7-24-07 walked none
7-25-07 walked 1.9 miles
Grand Total: 118.2 miles
Thank you God for giving me the energy and strength to walk. I pray that you will help me to walk every single day. In Jesus' name I pray, Amen!
Tuesday, July 24, 2007
I Don't Know What To Do Anymore
I had to take my oldest son to Vanderbilt yesterday to see his endocrinologist. His A1c was once again over 14%. The doctor said it was a huge safety risk for him to be that high, so we can no longer leave him alone, nor can we trust him to check his sugar and get his shots. We have to watch him do it all, or do it for him.
It's a shame that a kid that is almost 15 years old won't be responsible enough to check his blood sugar and get his shots. We have taken everything away from him, phone, church activities (which he loves), going anywhere, doing anything fun, and nothing has worked.
How does he learn to be responsible and take care of himself if I do it for him? I won't always be around, he has got to learn to do this himself. He has got to start caring about himself enough to want to do it.
Lord I can only thank you for keeping Austen as healthy as he has been under the circumstances, because he seems to be trying to hurt his body by not taking care of himself. Lord I am begging you to give me the strength and the guidance to get his blood sugar to a safe level. I also beg you to work on him so that he will care enough to manage his own disease. Just help us all Lord, please just help us all. In Jesus' name I pray, Amen.
It's a shame that a kid that is almost 15 years old won't be responsible enough to check his blood sugar and get his shots. We have taken everything away from him, phone, church activities (which he loves), going anywhere, doing anything fun, and nothing has worked.
How does he learn to be responsible and take care of himself if I do it for him? I won't always be around, he has got to learn to do this himself. He has got to start caring about himself enough to want to do it.
Lord I can only thank you for keeping Austen as healthy as he has been under the circumstances, because he seems to be trying to hurt his body by not taking care of himself. Lord I am begging you to give me the strength and the guidance to get his blood sugar to a safe level. I also beg you to work on him so that he will care enough to manage his own disease. Just help us all Lord, please just help us all. In Jesus' name I pray, Amen.
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